When is Enough, Enough?

I know I have asked this question before but this for a total different reason now. Let me begin at the beginning sort of speak. It all started Mother's Day. My hubby went to Magic Mountain supposedly with his brother. He left our house on Saturday morning at about 11am but didn't return home until almost 3am Sunday morning. When he did arrive home I was really upset and I didn't want to get into an argument so I got the baby and stuff to sleep on the couch. Well that was the wrong thing to do because it appears that my hubby didn't like that idea too much. He gets up all pissed and acting like a fool. I asked him why it took so long for him to get home when I know the park closed at 11pm. He gave me some BS excuse about it took a long time to drive home. While I do know that it takes a minute to get here but 4 hours was ridiculous.

So he gets to yelling and screaming. Then it was like out of a scary domestic violence movie. He got all in my face and then he began to grab me really hard and started shoving me around. It scared the living daylights out of me. It was like he was possessed or something. I was scared and i didn't know what to do. But then my youngest son came out of his bedroom because he heard the commotion and said "Daddy no hit Mommy! Daddy Bad!! No Hit Mommy!" and it was like a light turned on in my head. He then picked me up by my throat and was choking me and I was like, I can not believe this. So I said to him, "so you are going to choke me in front of our son?" and he said with no hesitation and soulless, "Yes I am going to choke you!". Then it was like something came over me and I picked up our vacuum cleaner and hit him with it. He stopped but took ALL the phones and house keys, so I wasn't able to call the cops or even get out of the house.

When I finally was able to get a phone I took me and the children and left because I felt that was not acceptable. We stayed away for a few days to let him think about what he did and for me to decide if it was worth coming back too. So I decided that I would come back but that seems like that was a horrible thing to do because of what happened the day after father's day... but you will have to stay tuned for that post as I don't have time to write about that just yet.

Until next post...

Most Beautiful Baby Ever Born!!!

Okay I guess I shouldn't say that as I believe that all of my children are beautiful. I guess my feelings are amplified due to what the baby had to endure the whole gestation period. So without further ado, here is my birth story:

I started having contractions the night of Feb. 5th and they were really close like every 5 mins for like 3 hours. I was like is this the real thing or was i just losing my mind. So I went to sleep and when I woke up they were gone. So on Feb. 6th, dh and I decided that I would go and walk some to see if I could get the contractions to start again and they did but after awhile they subsided again. Then dh started to get a little on edge so we did what got us there in the first place. LOL My contractions started up and they kept on going so we took the children to my parents house and went to the hospital. I think the main reason why I went is because I kept having contractions but nothing was really progressing.

So on Feb. 7th we wound up in L & D where they hooked me up the machines and monitored me for like an hour and my contractions had AGAIN slowed down and when they checked me I was 1cm with 70% effacement. So they sent me home but before they did that's when all the questions started about pre-natal care and how do I know my due date is really the 8th. blah blah blah. so the midwife set me up with all kinds of appts. i got bloodwork done before i even left the hospital that night and then the next day on the 8th I was sent to get an in-depth ultrasound done to make sure the baby was alright and she was of course but my technician didn't have any idea of what she was doing because we were there for an hour and a half and she had to call someone to help her see. can you believe that???

then i had an appt on feb. 9th to get a non stress test (NST) done and have my amniotic fluid level checked and also to see the ob/gyn. that's when i found out that my fluid level was at 6.2 and if was near 5 i would be induced. the ob checked me and even though i was having contractions, i was still only 1 cm dialated, 70% effaced at -1 station and my cervix was posterior. then he scheduled me to have another NST and amnio fluid check for saturday feb. 10th. when i went in that day i my fluid was supposedly at 8.6. so i didn't think anything of it and went about the rest of my weekend because i already had an appt for monday the 12th to get another NST and amnio fluid check.

at this point we were so tired of driving 45 miles to the doctor that we really didn't even feel like going anymore but i guess dh was the sensible one, so we made the trip once again this time with ALL of our children in tow because dd didn't have school for the holiday. the NSTs were always great but when she checked my fluid it was at 3.something all i remember was her saying to me "your time is up" and me saying "oh sh!t". big laugh her asking me if i had somewhere to be and me saying i have to find someone to watch my children. LOL

we started calling everyone and the nearest person was still an hour away from us. i stalled in the waiting room of the L & D dept for about 1/2 hour with my chart. then i finally went and checked in about 11:30am. they didn't start my induction until 1:30pm and it progressed slowly as they induced me with pitocin because my cervix was 80% effaced and i was dialated 3cm but still at -1 and posterior. so the doc pulled my cervix forward and i we waited for something to get started.

i can say that stuff didn't really get started until about 6:30-7pm because that is when i finally was at 6 cms and things got hectic. LOL so i was laboring and my mom was trying to take my mind off of things by telling me to find my chi... we both do yoga and that was totally the wrong time but the right time. LOL labored some more and i could tell that i was near the pivotal point the last couple of cms because the pain was unbearable and my contractions were every 1.5 to 2 mins apart. i gave in ladies because i couldn't take the pain any longer and i got an epidural around 9:30 and by the time that they actually finished giving it to me, the doc checked and found out that i was completely dialated. i was afraid that it would've slowed my labor. LOL

once the epi kicked in it was about 10:45pm and i was still feeling the pressure but it was tolerable. LOL so the nurse asked if i was ready to push and i told her yep, so she and dh had me pushing until about 11:15pm and then she told me to hold on because she had to get either the midwife or ob to come and deliver the baby can you believe that? LOL it was too bad because little mama was coming out all by herself at this point. big laugh the ob finally arrived and around 11:45pm and i was free to push. my beautiful baby girl was born on 2/13 at 12:05am.

A Lot To Catch Up On

Wow has it really been almost 6 months since I last posted to this blog? Well I guess it has. So I bt you are wondering how things have turned out right? Has things gotten better? Are we still married? Has our relationship gotten better or worse or maintained the same? Oh I can't forget the ever important, what the sex of our baby is and when the baby was born? I will be updating to get you all caught up but I won't mix the good with the bad though. My baby's birth was amazing and I don't want to mix it with some hatred laden post. So I will being my updates in the next couple of posts.

Until then...